Accutane

I took the plunge.  I went to the dermatologist again and discussed the option of Accutane.  I asked him what he would do if he was me.  He said he would recommend doing a low dose Accutane - 40mg every other day - and see how it goes.  The low dose has less side effects and works over a longer course.  I have been on different creams, antibiotics (Minocycline), birth control, etc and my skin still freaks out when I do fertility treatments.  It usually semi-clears up over time, but never goes back to "normal".
I have never been scared to get pregnant - until now.  This box made is CLEAR not to get pregnant while taking Accutane.  It's written EVERYWHERE on the box.  

And if you can't read - there are little prego women crossed out when you pop out each pill. 

You have to take a PLEDGE to use 2 forms birth control.  I asked if 6 failed cycles of invitro worked as one form.  They said no. 

I've been on it for about 2 weeks now.  My skin is pretty dry and I've already had 3 nose bleeds. I haven't had a bloody nose in forever!  The Dr. said it's pretty common since your skin is getting so dry. I took before pics...so we'll see how it goes. 

Accutane?

To Accutane or not to Accutane?  Ever since I have started fertility treatments years ago - my skin has forever changed.  My body HATES artificial hormones!  In high school I may have had 10 zits total.  Now I have 10 zits on my left chin.  I'm REALLY contemplating going on Accutane.  The list of side effects go on and on...but I don't think I can take my face looking like a war zone much longer.  It is definitely the biggest confidence deflater EVER! 

I remember complaining about my skin to my best friend Jen.  I sent her a picture of how terrible it looked:

  She asked me if there was any way to cover them or if I had tried Proactiv. :)  She's the type of person that knows exactly what to say.  She never said "Oh, it doesn't look that bad" or "Well, at least you don't have to get fat during the pregnancy" (Yes, I got those responses from someone).  I remember telling her the zits, injections, vaginal ultrasounds, money, etc. would totally be worth it if there was a positive pregnancy test in the end.  A few weeks later I sent her this picture:

She was freaking out and so excited for us.  Then she asked, "Now do you LOVE your zits?" haha.. :) I replied, "YES!!"

Everything we have been through is TOTALLY worth it - to have 3 kids in the end is the biggest blessing EVER!!!!!!  But, if I can take something to fix my skin - I think I might try it.  Any thoughts??